I’m great at taking accountability. That is one of the things that my parents instilled in me growing up. Take responsibility for your actions son, no excuses.
I can admit that I was wrong, I can admit that I deserve whatever punishment or consequences that may come from my actions.
I even feel sorry for whoever my actions impacted but one thing I seem to struggle with is remorse.
I find myself looking in the mirror and thinking to myself like, “Bruh, why aren’t you ashamed of yourself”.
I just can’t bring myself to care. Mind you it isn’t anything major that I am doing to people. Not like I am lying to folk, cheating, stealing or anything like that.
Still, sometimes, people can come at me with something I did all sad or upset and I just look at them as blankly as possible and honestly not give a damn. Even though I want to. The only amount of energy that I can muster is feeling sorry that they feel this way.
Damn, I hope this changes because it isn’t an endearing quality to have as an adult, it isn’t attractive and it isn’t really anything to be proud of. I need to do better.